5th September 2009

I long for it now, I long for everything. I missed so much, and yet so little but now my priorities have shifted. I no longer walk without a purpose. Sneer all you want, mock me, I do not care. My purpose is a human being. Never before have I been unable to tell what someone has been feeling. Humans to me have always been, transparent creatures, so easy to read, like a children's book, simpler than a children's book. But not, it. It is hardly a vampire characteristic that is being publicized, for the first time I feel, inadequate. Like, I am being controlled. I have always taken intense pride at the fact that no one controlled me, but that is no more.